16 weeks

Things have been going pretty good since the last time I wrote.  I feel like a little energy has returned but I say that with caution.  I actually had enough energy to walk on the treadmill a couple of times last week  BUT I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still taking regular naps.  My nausea is almost non-existent at this point. Last week I went to get my hair done and when I walked into the salon, there was a pot of coffee brewing and it smelled fabulous!!  That made me very happy to enjoy that smell once again.
But now onto the complaints.  I have so many headaches.  Looking back on my pregnancy journal for Clara, I complained about them at this time with her too.  So I guess this is normal for me.  Whatever normal is.
I'm still longing for that defining moment of knowing for sure that I have felt the baby move.  There have been a few instances that I thought maybe I felt a little something.  But nothing definite yet.  I'm trying to be patient and I keep telling myself that maybe tomorrow will be the day.  I would just love the reassurance of feeling that.
I change my mind daily on the gender of the baby.  I really cannot decide what I think we are having.  We also haven't talked about names too much.  Nate and I have a history of never agreeing on a boy name.  So to save any fights or headaches, we are waiting to start the discussions until after we find out what it is.  No sense in going there if we don't need too. 
Until next time!

14 weeks - Do you want a boy this time?

Let's be honest, if you haven't asked me this question personally, I know you are thinking it.  I get it it. It's a perfectly understandable question.  But it's not one that I can answer a simple yes or no to.  So I will try my best to explain.
Nate and I decided to start and family and one day were blessed with a baby girl.  Then there was never really a decision to be made about whether or not to have another after that.  It was more of a question of when. We always knew we wanted at least two.  Well then after having our second baby there was an actual decision to be made.  Do we or don't we?  We obviously love the thought of adding a son to our family. Something totally different and fun.  However when deciding to have a 3rd, we had to ask ourselves, would we be okay with having three girls?  No wait, not just would it be "okay" but would we love and embrace our lives having 3 daughters?  (insert some reservations when we are pondering our lives with 3 girls ages 16, 14, and 11)  However,  when we were both able to conclude yes, than that was our answer. I truly feel that children are a gift from God and I have faith in knowing that He chooses the perfect child for our family.  So I'm trying really hard to not get hung up on wanting one or the other but rather just waiting to see what the right fit for us is.
Now having said all of that.  I do hope that God feels a boy is what we need.  But if it's another girl - I will embrace without looking back because I know God knows best.  What is crazy exciting to think about is that it is already one or the other.  Well that was determined at conception.  But what I really mean is that I read in my pregnancy book that at 14 weeks the baby is fully formed, now things just have to mature and grow - lots!  So "the new littlest" has it's parts and hopefully it will reveal it's parts on ultrasound day.  Until then I will just keep trying to figure out the easiest way to answer that question, because I would bet my left hand that I will get asked again.  And again.
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I had my 14 week Dr.s appointment today.  I got to hear the heartbeat only just briefly because the little bugger was apparently moving around a lot. So as soon as it would register on the Doppler, it would go away shortly thereafter. It was super sweet to hear, I could listen to that thumping all day long.  It was 146.  Dr. S reviewed with me that I have an unusual antibody in my blood - Anti M it's called.  It will require me to have more frequent blood draws to make sure I don't start producing a lot more or it could adversely affect the baby.  He didn't seemed overly concerned, so I will try not to be as well
I got to schedule my next appointment which will be ultrasound day - YAY!  It's slated for March 13th.
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I felt something in my lower abdomen that may have been more than gas.  I won't swear to it, but I felt that distinct feeling twice last night and then once on the way to the Dr. this morning.